Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The past should stay in the past...right?

Have you ever tried to forget something so bad it hurt? But when you think about it, you want to fix it or touch it to see if it still stings. Often people leave things unfinished or without closure, but justify it various ways. My own justifications are fairly lame, but I feel are strong enough to hold me bad from closure or fixing string pasts. I find this is a common issue among people. Either it's an issue of trust, either with one's self or other people. I could be an issue or fear or reaction or result. It could also be a masochistic reasoning, "It's my fault, I should suffer." It could be a lot of reasoning. My own on the reason this is being typed is the second. Fear. A strong emotion, enough to hold back a deep desire to put closure on a sad part of my past. As with most people in this situation should it go on long enough, I don't think about it often, but when I do, it's thought upon hard. A good hard look at if I can get past my own fear, the scenarios that could happen and I suppose a lack of trust in the other person. But perhaps instead of trust, a lack in knowing the person. But once again, fear, wins again. How often does this happen to you, the few that read this, tell me. Engage.